Mistake

I made a mistake today.

I took a home pregnancy test (which was negative -DAMN).

I know am not supposed to do this as "it may be inaccurate" during the two week wait, but I couldn't help it. Now even though I know it is possibly inaccurate, I am still bummed out at this negative result.

I have another one (preg test) at home and knowing me I won't be able to just wait until my blood test on Wednesday 3/5, I'll probably have to do another one in a couple days and then if it's still negative I'll be extremely bummed out. Maybe I'll be compliant and wait..... probably not.

This whole thing is driving me a little crazy.

I mean..... Teenagers have been getting knocked-up for centuries- why can't I?

Brittney Spears and even her little sister who probably still lives with her parents can all get knocked up and be parents. Why can't the people who have homes, jobs and have prepared their lives physically, financially, spiritually and mentally for babies get pregnant?

(I know, this sounds like a pity party but I guess I'm riding the progesterone pity train today) - the horomones kind of 'enhance' my feelings so that they are hard to hide.

Feeling Better

Feeling better today.

I have to wait until 3/5 to see if i'm pregnant so I'm just passing the time.

Gave maggie a bath today! that wasn't very fun but she smells like a princess now.

(Attached is a picture of the newly clean maggie dog chewing a new nyla bone as a treat!)

Will probably go shopping w/mom this weekend - which is always a lot of fun, one of my favorite things to do. We find cool little stores and spend the day together, I wish we had a baby to bring along!

Then will probably have dinner/movie night w/Greg on Sunday. Well see. I've been wanting to see Juno, the preview looks REALLY funny.

depressed and bloated

feeling depressed and bloated today.

progesterone level was too low so now MORE progesterone has been added. yay.

still drinking tons of liquids as instructed to ward off Ovarian Hyperstimulation Syndrome - probably the root of the bloated feeling.

tomorrow will be a better day i'm sure.

Embryo Transfer

4 day old embryo


Well~ on Saturday 2/23/08 I had 2 embryos transfered which will hopefully develop into at least one beautiful baby. They both had ICSI as well as Assisted Hatching which I understand increased the likelyhood of identical twins - which means that I could end up with 1 or 2 babies, or 3 or 4 babies (which is not likely per my fertility specialist who says that this would be the 'rarest of the rare' and reminds me that there is only a 40% success rate with this procedure and that is with getting only one baby out of this whole deal).

So whatever, I know I shouldn't get my hopes up too much but I can't help it, it's only human. I won't know if I'm even "pregnant" until the blood test on Wednesday 3/5/08 - What's that? I have two embroys inside me - that seems pregnant to me! (I understand the whole attaching thing, but I can't help but feel that there are two potential lives in me so in my warped little world - that feels pregnant).

Egg retreival this WEDNESDAY! Woo Hoo!

Waiting.......

Waiting for the doctor to call ultrasound and lab results to me (the ultrasound tech told me that my follicles are ALMOST ready - maybe a day or so more medications then everythings moves forward!) yay!

I have to brush up on all my post-procedure instructions, it's been a while since i've read them.

Hope to have some good news to post!

The journey continues...

Had another ultrasound today - found out that things are developing quickly and I am to have another ultrasound in the morning. (Looks like daily ultrasounds and bloodwork now until the egg retrieval which they say will probably be in a couple days).

I'm feeling quite bloated and uncomfortable, having headaches and am REALLY fatigued. (I feel like a lazy bum). Other than that, no side effects. :)

Anyway, it's 9:30 pm and I'm off to bed (have to be in for ultrasound at 7:30am and then straight off to work). Hoping for good news.

Found a really cool blog today from a girl dealing w/infertility also. Pretty amusing. Link below. (I wish I would have thought up such a cool name for my blog: "Who shot my stork?" - very witty).
http://damnthatstork.blogspot.com/

Really fatigued.....

I am currently on day 7 of injections in my IVF cycle. Hopefully soon there will be some mature eggs and then I'll go through egg retreival and hopefully embryo transfer! (Then hopefully an uncomplicated pregnancy). Will continue to think positively and plan for baby Gracie.

Really getting fatigued using these IVF medications (Follistim, Ganirelix, Menopur...). Injections are 3 times a day now. So far headaches and extreme fatigue are the only side effects I am noticing. I can't even stay awake when I'm watching a TV show, I am constantly falling asleep. Oh well, whatever it takes.

Have been searching the internet for helpful IVF sites, can't find any really good forums or places where you can have conversations with other women going through the same thing.... I'll keep searching.

Here's a good general website though:
https://simplyivf.com/Home.php

Test

Just testing to see if this really works.