Thursday, October 9, 2008

Second IVF Failure........

I haven't blogged about my second IVF cycle because I feel like I have a tendency towards being a little negative when I blog at times and I wanted to be completely positive in my attitude towards my second IVF cycle.

Today was my HCG level after my second IVF.......the result was 0.1 which means not pregnant by a long shot.

So anyway, I see my doctor tomorrow to discuss what to do now. I spoke with him on the phone today and he said since my embryos are all "perfect" and my lining was "perfect" and my labwork was "perfect" both times......that now he needs me to do some testing to find out why I can't implant ("get pregnant"). Testing for thrombophelia, killer cells, etc...... We'll talk more tomorrow. I am walking down a little longer infertility road than I thought I'd be walking down. I thought that we could bypass the low sperm count and the PCOS by doing the IVF.....putting the little embryos right where they need to be......but now it turns out I am a little more broken than I thought I was and I can't seem to get my embryos to implant even when everything is "perfect."

Oddly enough....I think I'm doing ok mentally. Sure it sucks, sure I'm sad........but I feel even more confident that some way, some day, some how I will have my babies. Whether I carry them, whether we adopt them, whether I use a surrogate.......(a work friend offered to be my surrogate today - it was one of the most awesome things anyone has ever said to me)........I know that the road to my kids is just a little longer and more complicated than some (and I'm sure less complicated than some). It's just's my road and I have to walk it and figure it out. But I know that some how in the future - I will have my kids.


Ashley said...

Aw, sorry honey. It's never easy to get that news. I'm completely impressed with your positive attitude. Keep it up! The long journey is completely worth it in the end, I promise.

bleu said...

I am so sorry. It just sucks.
Have you done assisted hatching? I am a big believer in it personally and always try to suggest it.

Again so sorry.

Shauna said...

yes....we did ISCI and Assisted Hatching on both IVF well as an endometrial biopsy prior to the second cycle. All supported with glucophage, aspirin and progesterone injections.

Morrisa said...

I am so so sorry. My heart breaks a little more evry time I hear someone got a negative. You are an amazingly strong woman. ((hugs))

Io said...

Oh lady, I am so sorry. I've been all wrapped up in myself and missed this.
I'm glad you're feeling okish. You *will* have your kids one way or another. (Big hugs.)

benson don said...

Second IVF success rates are largely the same as those for the first cycle.
There are some versions within the results and this will depend on the factors why the first pattern did not perform.